the reality of Abba, part 2

after some days of reviewing my former comments on the nature of my Father, i feel it necessary expound further upon this topic. for, so few of His children know and understand the terrible dichotomy that is both divine love of good and divine hatred of evil. allow me to begin my quoting my brother, as i will do frequently herein, who wrote at length as to the nature of our Father.

“God is the only comfort, He is also the supreme terror: the thing we most need and the thing we most want to hide from. He is our only possible ally, and we have made ourselves His enemies.” (1)

First, as i have previously stated, Abba is good, but never safe. you see, if i were completely without sin my Father would be to me nothing but the purest of bliss. yet i am not of that disposition. in fact, i am of the opposite and completely contrary disposition. i am completely evil. no thought, motive, or action that i am capable of is free from the arsenic of evil. even my best intentions are laced with pride. though often hidden from even my own understanding, sin exists in every corner of my being. this sin is in direct opposition to the Father that i claim to love so very dearly; thus, making us the greatest enemies of the only One who would offer us aid in our dilapidated estate. for this reason we once faced our Father with GREAT fear. to quote again my brother,

“Some people talk as if meeting the gaze of absolute goodness would be fun. They need to think again. They are still only playing with religion. Goodness is either the great safety or the great danger-according to the way you react to it. And we have reacted the wrong way.” (2)

Perhaps then, you perceive the problem. simply put it is this: My Father is all good. being all good by definition means that He must hate all that is evil. i am that very evil personified. there cannot be mercy without compensation for the wrongs He has suffered on account of my existence, for to excuse evil would imply that he himself is not completely good, but only partially good. for, only one who can accept evil can rationally pardon it without atonement.

left here, our fate would be a dismal one indeed, but this is not the end. in fact, it is not even the beginning. but, that is for another day.

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(1) Mere Christianity, C.S. Lewis
(2) ibid.